Don’t let what you ‘wish’ for become:
‘What I Should Have’
Don’t let what you ‘wish’ for become:
‘What I Should Have’
What the Spirit Said- “When the perfect sacrifices itself for the imperfect, everything has changed.”
Everything is redeemed, elevated to a level previously unattainable. The Spirit, so eloquent, so subtle, if not payed attention to, travels past like a premonition or enigma, but when I am able to catch it, when I slow to walk along side, it forms a peace within me, filling me like Elijah’s quiet breeze, the pure simple movement of it filling my soul becomes ecstasy…joy, praise, and worship combining for a brief moment of wholeness. “The kingdom of God does not come with careful observation,nor will they say ‘Behold here,’ or ‘There.’ For behold, the kingdom of God is in your midst.
Time in the sphere of matter is erosive, solvent, reductive, terminal. Time in the eternal is curative, regenerative, expanding ever outward.

Free will is not measured by the ability to pursue what you wish, but in the capacity to resist forces contrary to your will.
11:44 p.m. Stars were bright tonight, even with some haziness in the atmosphere. Pegasus directly overhead, Jupiter and Saturn plunging towards the horizon in the West. The moon was tangled in the branches of a Siberian elm. The bow of Orion was resting on the purple rim of distant hills……
Who is true, who would sacrifice everything for you, who gives without measure? I had this, and I have little hope that I could ever regain it once more. I had my day in the sun, and can accept loss and the resulting solitude for that reason. For all of you who are still waiting for your day in the sun, be patient and hopeful, do not rush into anything that may bring you regret, make yourselves worthy, wait expectantly for the good thing God intends for you.
Oct 25, 2021
Kay @Old_ Old_Path wrote:
This is the beautiful mystery of the miracle that occurs when we submit to his will, we release flesh attachments & offer up earthly self as a living sacrifice to him. The soul is then made free, cleansed, saved, redeemed & transformed into a dwelling place fit for Spirit & for God.
Birovius replied:
The beauty of this sacrifice is that the ‘precious’ life we imagine we are giving up on the altar is just a shadow. The Father honors this, full well knowing that what he gives in return is immeasurable by comparison. When we understand this, we will know the heart of the Father.
Kay’s response:
Yes, what a long, bumpy road it can be till we awaken at last to the truth that that we’re not really giving up anything but shadow and vanity. Thanks be to him for the past things he has pried from my unrelenting death grasp upon what I was sure I needed and was best for me.
I
Appeasements on the rim of the caldera…
measured footsteps deliberated
on plasma consecrated clotted ground.
The priests’ eyes of remoteness,
like clear stones look past the temporal field
piercing malfeasance with dismissive gestures
while incantations gutter outward
amid the amassing immolations.
The obsidian blade assures
no lasting atonement,
cycles accumulate new trespasses,
generate new hunger in the gods,
perpetuating unending crucifixions
of the id.
The smoke of the sacrifice purpling
at the edge of the known
deflects bleakly into
the sonic dark atmosphere.
II
All deeds have fallen to dust,-
dead spores suspended
in emoted volitions.
Of all that was written,
nothing will remain,
the tongues of sedition
stamped down amid
the praises of the overseers,
leave only the silence stones.
The creatures of Prometheus disperse,
are covered in iridium, are laid down
in the black Jurassic mat.
Those newly born into twilight
succumb silently on the charnel ground.
III
Lives, small-minded,
lived in corners of deceit,
conceived and regulated
in the rat run,- polarized,
strung out, bent under laws
that bind us to earth,
rush on adrenalated
in the wreck of days.
Where-to these enduring
expectant lives, whose fears
articulate lies of preservation,
who fester day-long
in inescapable self-deception
and loss of faith, ultimately wresting
promise into lost days?
What-for?
IV
Of artifice nothing will remain:
the Iron Pillar of Chandra,
the temple dance, the fire altar,
pattern of the jola drum…
these lie buried in labyrinths of untraceable
and irretrievable time.
Gone the full ardour of life
expressed in subtle craft
and overt contrivance;
invention spun into a myriad arts lost:
masters of fire, shapers of metal,
those who augured from charred bits of bone,
they who grappled eagles in their middens,
she that weaves the pattern
of earth and sky into fabric, removed.
From their dust their art shall not be revived.
Lured across crimson seas, led over yellow sands
intoxicated by visions, those drawn in
dreaming the many temptations
proffered in the siren’s call,
neither do they return;
the earthen tracks of their caravans
close like the wake of a wave
in a sea of oblivion.
V
Cursed objects unearthed
drive the fever of the mind,
roving over subterranean rhythms,
delving in dark streams rushing below,
ignorant of stars,-
ignorant of the flowering stone.
VI
Underlying everything, buried in every cell:
DEATH APPARATUS…
Power, arrogance, authority over men
legitimized by the doctrinal ravings
of lunatics: deceits leading to
pollutions of the mind,
corruption of wills,
contaminations of the body,
oaths of allegiance coerced,
professions of faith coerced
on the frontiers of hysteria;
suspicion and distrust precipitating
the slow slide into madness.
Summoners of Primordial Shadow,
lurk in the Doorway of Syndromes,
robed in the Dark Pathology
of Endocrine Disruptors.
Carrying the star of the false prophet, they
incur the Fate of Desecrators upon us all.
They haunt the Shadow of God,
which is DEATH.
They dwell in the ECSTACY
of the all-consuming fire,
which has become my abode,
where I stumble headlong
onto descending paths
to fall in among the dead,
the weight of the soul held
against the weight of a feather;
there falling in among
things past and things lost,
to lay like a stone
with angelic music streaming in my head.
(Aniridia Redux)
We would never know love so deep and wide,
‘less the spear-point had pierced His side.
What burden of mind could man have borne
As heavy as His crown of thorns?
And unless the nail had stayed the hand
Against unyielding wood,
No claim would hold up in this world
As having done any earthly good.
So , think on these things,
How the bruised heel and battered foot
Held fast by iron spike
Crushed the serpent’s head
And delivered us into everlasting light.
There is no life without sacrifice…
“When the perfect sacrifices itself for the imperfect, everything changes.”
Everything becomes redeemable; elevated to a level previously unattainable.
Wild Man Journal:
While we have been placed here in this world to be tested, nonetheless we were created for joy.